Farewell Steve

I woke up today with the news that my hero has died.

I have to reflect on this - now - so that I don't betray the incredible emotions I felt today. I feel incredibly sad - so sad that I can hardly think.

The last time something affected me as this did was when Jenny died. It is hard to describe - I didn't know him, but it feels as though I did. When Jenny died, I heard about it through an off-hand remark on a phone call. When Steve died, I heard it from someone else. I had to ask him to repeat what he said to me. But the same bombshell struck both times. I was near to tears for most of the day - I am still now.

Why do I feel this way? I realised that I was drawing parallels between his life and my one. We both got kicked out of the company we loved. We both had to start over. I have some of the things he said that inspired me most on my computer and I look at it every day. It is that what gave me the will to go on.

It is so sad that the end came the way it did. I was still hoping that he would make a surprise appearance on Tuesday with the new iPhone launch. That didn't happen. He is dead now.

I must say, the man was amazing. He is one of the very few people in this world that truly inspired me. I want to be like him.

I will miss him very much indeed.

Farewell Steve.

I haven't blogged for a long time. Too long. Much has happened. Most recently I finished this book. True it took me less than twenty minutes to read. But then I read it twice again. That took the rest of the hour. I like the way the author simplified some of the biggest issues one can face. B calls it Zombies. I call it issues. But it is important to not get stuck.

I realised that I got stuck in my past the last couple of months. It is really time to move on. So much changed since that dreadful day in January. I am still looking for a purpose, but not as much as before. This last weekend I embarked on a new journey that will shape things in the coming months. I can't say much, except that it will cause a whole lot of red next year :)

Why a good working knowledge of English is important

Jacques and I went to his school today. I spotted these bags of dishwasher salt in the corner of the kitchen. I asked him about it. He explained it to me as follows. Kilogram. Gram. Dishwasher salt. One Polish immigrant. (She got confused with gram vs kilogram!).

My Orchid Babies

I've got 20 of them now. Growing them indoors next to my computer. The best way to keep them happy is to use distilled water and to "spritz" them every morning before work. I used to water them, but since I stopped doing that, they absolutely flourished. The are happy in a cool room (18C), with only artificial light.

Loganberry

One thing I will definitely have at the new flat is a collection of berries on the balcony. Saw a loganberry for the first time. The last photo is not mine, but gives you an idea what they look like.

- Posted from my iPhone

English Nursery

First time I ever saw these plants. Nursery labeled them "Alpines". They are very pretty used as part of Living Roofs. One day I'll have a garden again. These ones are labeled "Sempervivum", as in always alive. That is appropriate I think.

Cherries 1W after blooms

I'm addicted to cherries. This is what they look like one week after the blooms fell off.


- Posted from my iPhone

Location:Victoria Close,Rickmansworth,United Kingdom